I have this strong justification behind this egoic contention I have about my persona and other people. I’ve always had this relationship with my ego thats not normal. Thats a disease.

Narcisissm is only available when you believe something cannot or will not happen in your external reality. It has to be something very close to your heart, where your best self would be. It is personal nationalism. It is a redirection of energy from what people use to bond with one another and looped back to the individual – – closed system of praise. The turning point from what is directed change to narcisissim lies in how the inner hole, the human condition, is appropriated. You have to have the contention that you are of enough self worth to press onward unapologetically in spite of this concious imbalance. The imbalance becomes the anchor to your imagined power that keeps people believing that youre either crazy or a genius – and that’s a reflection that you’re constantly converting into a patently disproportionate sense of self. The true, most sincere narcissists are the ones who convert this effectively. The entire concept of narcissism is much more doctorized and compartmentalized than how it actually affects society. Not only can narcissism be a deliberate pursuit for itself, it can also be an active defense mechanism. This is how it is mostly used. When one is validated to a certain degree by society, one can feel justified in responding to a belief that is not in accordance with their belief structure.   In fact an entire culture can have narcisissm. Narcisissm can only be a disease, which is its true state, when it is unsupervised, and unchecked egoism. So it is fair to say that narcissists are only relevant with regard to certain levels of egoism – there is a innate bond between the levels of the two, and the interaction with eachother.

So if a narcissist is using his narcissism correctly, he is deliberately acting in one of two unapologetic ways. He is either defending the glory of himself, or advertising the world as a lesser reality to the one within his self.

Once it reaches the point that it is significantly relied upon, within the internal reality, the game of narcisissm goes in one of a few directions. If it is the egoic dilusion can keep entangling with justification and perhaps intelligence increase, perhaps even over many lives and human incarnations until resolved, or, which is the inevitable conseqence… comes to a pyroclastic release point where all egoic misrepresentations start blasting out of the SMALLEST hole in the ego that eventually had to be enough to let this bull shit leave you. After awhile, eventually, this is all it will take, and this will occur. Because, after all, this egoetry is not you, or anyone, or anything. If the ego is completely representing the self without belief of consequence or egoic relativity (civility) it is a complete delusion. One that many live with, and die with. But eventually, there is no possible way that this can result in anything but a renewal of a human life until this pressure is released to let conciousness develop and of course, reunite with its fellow cells, or fellow humans. After all, it is a scientific fact that we are of one conciousness, and we are all one. How then, does an individual cell have its unique and self rightous agenda to effectively run a body independently? It cannot do this, for the nature of the cell is such that it is one of many. The cell does right within itself to be the best it can be, but that is a ego within the boundary of its civility, and the egoic self gratification is held closely in relation to that allegiance. There is no other way it can be done after death, besides a reincarnation and a renewal of the same experiences until this hole in the egoic ozone is opened, and the ego, like an ice cube releasing into a bath tub, is immediatly satiated and balanced in equalibrium with its ultimate identity, of selflessness.