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I had planned on making a video for this to show more commitment, but I hope my writing can reflect it. I see this blog as being more of a service to myself, and to you, which I consider to be apart of myself. Communication is being redefined in our age, and that reshapes us everyday. The emotions behind the feeling of home can be found in a blog. Or on your Facebook page. Reinforcing identity is the best definition for communication someone can suggest. Family is being reshaped without us even knowing. Technology is us pushing off from the dock into a sea of material understanding of how we communicate…I can happily gaurantee that we will never suffice with our technological family though; it is more of a reinforcement that we all are family! We will always love to see one another, and I think technology sort of gives us an assist with that.

I wanted to make a post that I felt was important to the entire idea of my blog, and it’s philosophy. I want to extend myself to you in a way that goes beyond this, and I want you to extend yourself to me, should you feel I was the right person.

I have always thought of myself as a counselor. I think that is a key to why I am here. I believe in that. I believe in me doing whatever that is – because that is something I have no judgements toward. In fact, I have complete shame with it. There is nothing important about me. There is nothing of significance, no talent I am drawing from. I draw myself from persisting in honesty and love and constant humility. I want to live closer to humility than just about anything. That is why in my personal life, most people gather than I am a person they feel alright with.


This is why I want to tell you that my main goal is not to write a blog and entertain anyone. This is an extention of a general life goal to be of assistance, to anyone. I am a humble human person. I am just here typing. There is nothing beyond this. You already know me because I am you, and I accept you. Should you feel like you need or want someone to talk to, for any reason at all, at any time, I would be honored and truely blessed to talk with you. There is no seperation, no reason I am looking for. If you want to ask someone if there watching a game you are, or about breaking up with a person you cared about. Or talking about weather. Or music. Or something stupid. There is no time where I will have any judgment toward an object of interest you should have that would prompt you to call me. I am here for other people, everyone has something they need to talk about. If you do, I hope you have the courage to talk to someone who cares. Love and peace for everyone

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one troubling thing about being so intimate  with any certain brand of negativity is that it will forever be a hindrence of your mind. to not be careful of it is to be blind in a field with a trench somewhere in it. eventually you will find it and fall in. when you do its deep and vast and too familiar.

I have this strong justification behind this egoic contention I have about my persona and other people. I’ve always had this relationship with my ego thats not normal. Thats a disease.

Narcisissm is only available when you believe something cannot or will not happen in your external reality. It has to be something very close to your heart, where your best self would be. It is personal nationalism. It is a redirection of energy from what people use to bond with one another and looped back to the individual – – closed system of praise. The turning point from what is directed change to narcisissim lies in how the inner hole, the human condition, is appropriated. You have to have the contention that you are of enough self worth to press onward unapologetically in spite of this concious imbalance. The imbalance becomes the anchor to your imagined power that keeps people believing that youre either crazy or a genius – and that’s a reflection that you’re constantly converting into a patently disproportionate sense of self. The true, most sincere narcissists are the ones who convert this effectively. The entire concept of narcissism is much more doctorized and compartmentalized than how it actually affects society. Not only can narcissism be a deliberate pursuit for itself, it can also be an active defense mechanism. This is how it is mostly used. When one is validated to a certain degree by society, one can feel justified in responding to a belief that is not in accordance with their belief structure.   In fact an entire culture can have narcisissm. Narcisissm can only be a disease, which is its true state, when it is unsupervised, and unchecked egoism. So it is fair to say that narcissists are only relevant with regard to certain levels of egoism – there is a innate bond between the levels of the two, and the interaction with eachother.

So if a narcissist is using his narcissism correctly, he is deliberately acting in one of two unapologetic ways. He is either defending the glory of himself, or advertising the world as a lesser reality to the one within his self.

Once it reaches the point that it is significantly relied upon, within the internal reality, the game of narcisissm goes in one of a few directions. If it is the egoic dilusion can keep entangling with justification and perhaps intelligence increase, perhaps even over many lives and human incarnations until resolved, or, which is the inevitable conseqence… comes to a pyroclastic release point where all egoic misrepresentations start blasting out of the SMALLEST hole in the ego that eventually had to be enough to let this bull shit leave you. After awhile, eventually, this is all it will take, and this will occur. Because, after all, this egoetry is not you, or anyone, or anything. If the ego is completely representing the self without belief of consequence or egoic relativity (civility) it is a complete delusion. One that many live with, and die with. But eventually, there is no possible way that this can result in anything but a renewal of a human life until this pressure is released to let conciousness develop and of course, reunite with its fellow cells, or fellow humans. After all, it is a scientific fact that we are of one conciousness, and we are all one. How then, does an individual cell have its unique and self rightous agenda to effectively run a body independently? It cannot do this, for the nature of the cell is such that it is one of many. The cell does right within itself to be the best it can be, but that is a ego within the boundary of its civility, and the egoic self gratification is held closely in relation to that allegiance. There is no other way it can be done after death, besides a reincarnation and a renewal of the same experiences until this hole in the egoic ozone is opened, and the ego, like an ice cube releasing into a bath tub, is immediatly satiated and balanced in equalibrium with its ultimate identity, of selflessness.